I'm done, I cannot stand when people change for the worst. I hate dumb fucks and especially not being told the truth. Have fun with your clone looking friends, I’m crossing my fingers and hoping this is all an attempt at a scheme that lead up to Halloween.
I have had it with all the importance you give to others' perceptions of your fake ass identity.
Your high regards for looks and appearance are lame; your attempts at it are really sad and obvious.
You were blessed with a working brain for a reason, all you have to do is try to think for yourself and not let others do that for you. Try to stay informed and think before you act or speak; start caring for yourself, and most important listen to those who have been there for you in the past.
The warning signs are more obvious than you realize, heartbreak is bound to come your way.
We have seen it coming, it is going to be bad, just look at his past.
You denied the warm embrace, which was once offered to you; no one is going to help you out of this one. Do not expect to be able to fall back on those who actually got to know you and now you've forgotten all about (along with your identity).
Before it is too late, come to realize how wrong you have been acting.
One last piece of advice before I completely give up on lending you a hand:
Try to find all the pieces of yourself you have lost on the way to the present.
Until you realize this, you will remain weak, sad, incomplete, alone and unhappy.
I can tell that you have not found yourself, much less, what makes you happy.
Find out what makes you, you. Then embark on your own search for happiness instead of looking at what makes others happy to fulfill your unsteady identity.
You are a shapeless glass, undefined and without boundaries to hold any identity, morals, standards or happiness. Find who you are, find your own unique shape. No one can tell you who you are or what you are, that is all up to you.
Ps: If you can relate to any of this, I dedicate this to you.
Tuesday, October 28
Monday, October 27
The Media Today
1- After reading this, I wanted to get botox.Hopefully it would help me look less sour around my mom and we'd be friends:
"In June 2008 in the Journal of the American Academy of Dermatology, a team of cosmetic surgeons suggested this experiment is making all of us happier. People with Botox may be less vulnerable to the angry emotions of other people because they themselves can’t make angry or unhappy faces as easily. And because people with Botox can’t spread bad feelings to others via their expressions, people without Botox may be happier too. The surgeons grant that this is just speculation for now. Nevertheless, they declare that “we are left with the tantalizing possibility that cosmetic procedures may have beneficial effects that are more than skin deep." (Nat'l Geographic ?)
2- After having random thoughts of Obama's greatness, and especially how it seems to me that skinheads and racist people will be the only ones voting for McCain. An absurd conclusion that seemed far from reality came to mind, just like I came to other absurd conclusions of random thoughts.. I figured, with the ignorance and thirst for power many of these white men want, someone is bound to attempt to assasinate Obama or --follow through with it. I mean, when it comes to these people (whom I may have stereotyped into ignorant) seeing a black man with that sort of success, power, advertising, and thumbs up from mostly everyone can seem quite endearing. Just imagine a million hitlers about to be ruled by a Jew. To them the idea must seem insane, and therefore their insane means somehow make more sense to them than reality..."Schlesselman and Cowart allegedly informed officers they were planning a "killing spree" that would involve killing 88 people and beheading 14 African-Americans. Both numbers have symbolic significance to white supremacists. The number "88" is code for "Heil Hitler," while "14" is a reference to the "14 Words," a white supremacist slogan: "We must secure the existence of our people and a future for white children." Court documents indicate the two suspects discussed a multi-state killing and robbing spree, to include targeting a predominantly African-American school. The murder spree would allegedly end with an attempt to assassinate presidential candidate Barack Obama with a high-powered rifle."(Marketwatch.com)
Crazy. Just imagine, what if they hadn't been caught and everything worked out for them, Where would we stand? Where would America and it's civilians stand? How would the world depict this nation; as a nation of freedom? doubt it. Let it linger. Ponder. Harder.
notice the black cop. c:
"In June 2008 in the Journal of the American Academy of Dermatology, a team of cosmetic surgeons suggested this experiment is making all of us happier. People with Botox may be less vulnerable to the angry emotions of other people because they themselves can’t make angry or unhappy faces as easily. And because people with Botox can’t spread bad feelings to others via their expressions, people without Botox may be happier too. The surgeons grant that this is just speculation for now. Nevertheless, they declare that “we are left with the tantalizing possibility that cosmetic procedures may have beneficial effects that are more than skin deep." (Nat'l Geographic ?)
2- After having random thoughts of Obama's greatness, and especially how it seems to me that skinheads and racist people will be the only ones voting for McCain. An absurd conclusion that seemed far from reality came to mind, just like I came to other absurd conclusions of random thoughts.. I figured, with the ignorance and thirst for power many of these white men want, someone is bound to attempt to assasinate Obama or --follow through with it. I mean, when it comes to these people (whom I may have stereotyped into ignorant) seeing a black man with that sort of success, power, advertising, and thumbs up from mostly everyone can seem quite endearing. Just imagine a million hitlers about to be ruled by a Jew. To them the idea must seem insane, and therefore their insane means somehow make more sense to them than reality..."Schlesselman and Cowart allegedly informed officers they were planning a "killing spree" that would involve killing 88 people and beheading 14 African-Americans. Both numbers have symbolic significance to white supremacists. The number "88" is code for "Heil Hitler," while "14" is a reference to the "14 Words," a white supremacist slogan: "We must secure the existence of our people and a future for white children." Court documents indicate the two suspects discussed a multi-state killing and robbing spree, to include targeting a predominantly African-American school. The murder spree would allegedly end with an attempt to assassinate presidential candidate Barack Obama with a high-powered rifle."(Marketwatch.com)
Crazy. Just imagine, what if they hadn't been caught and everything worked out for them, Where would we stand? Where would America and it's civilians stand? How would the world depict this nation; as a nation of freedom? doubt it. Let it linger. Ponder. Harder.
notice the black cop. c:
Thursday, October 23
girls who rely on beauty
1. you may look beautiful on the outside, and surely that won't last
2.your happiness is limited to appearance
3.love isn't true, sex and lust are more of a reality in your life
4.your brains wont get you anywhere, however, your pussy and your ass might
5. respect isn't in your dictionary which might give everyone a clue as to why you don't have any for yourself
6. ultimately, you may portray confidence, but we all know there is something you're hiding from us
7.loose pussy: from favors that get you what you want
8.damaged skin: from makeup, sun or tanning beds
9. broken hips: from wearing heels and TRYING to look as tall as a model should
10.ultimately, a prostitute has more morals and higher standards than you do
2.your happiness is limited to appearance
3.love isn't true, sex and lust are more of a reality in your life
4.your brains wont get you anywhere, however, your pussy and your ass might
5. respect isn't in your dictionary which might give everyone a clue as to why you don't have any for yourself
6. ultimately, you may portray confidence, but we all know there is something you're hiding from us
7.loose pussy: from favors that get you what you want
8.damaged skin: from makeup, sun or tanning beds
9. broken hips: from wearing heels and TRYING to look as tall as a model should
10.ultimately, a prostitute has more morals and higher standards than you do
more random thoughts-animals
1.I just remembered a conclusion that came up the other day.. I recalled it today:
issue: studying under a tree, sitting on a picnic table, random ants everywhere.
conclusion: the wind was blowing them off the tree branches... and obviously they were all surviving the fall and were crawling all over me without feeling the need to sting me.
2.The deer I saw on the other side of the fence which separated the highway from the wild and extensive everglades. This was on our way back home from Orlando. No, it couldn't have been alive, in fact, It's a statue.
3.The squirrel, well allie's conclusion--it galloped.
issue: studying under a tree, sitting on a picnic table, random ants everywhere.
conclusion: the wind was blowing them off the tree branches... and obviously they were all surviving the fall and were crawling all over me without feeling the need to sting me.
2.The deer I saw on the other side of the fence which separated the highway from the wild and extensive everglades. This was on our way back home from Orlando. No, it couldn't have been alive, in fact, It's a statue.
3.The squirrel, well allie's conclusion--it galloped.
Wednesday, October 22
3 thoughts lingering in my mind
1. I keep seeing people pursuing their dreams, great effort, great creations..sometimes with a success, sometimes not so much. However, I don't know where I hid my dreams to go follow them! Hmm.. Surely I need to find them in order to have the opportunity to attempt success.
2.--I forget now, you're lucky I was able to post at least two things-- Short time memory loss equals me, never being able to remember what I was talking about after I get interrupted.
3. I want to make love to a few songs, I just heard Sexy Boy by Air. Yep, that is one of 'em.
2.--I forget now, you're lucky I was able to post at least two things-- Short time memory loss equals me, never being able to remember what I was talking about after I get interrupted.
3. I want to make love to a few songs, I just heard Sexy Boy by Air. Yep, that is one of 'em.
Tuesday, June 3
Its getting late
Lately the most difficult for me to do is stay organized and being aware of time. I need a routine.
I also feel that I need to keep writing, as though I might forget how out of nowhere or maybe from fearing that there will be a day that I live without noticing.
What I miss the most is my childhood memories, why do they fade?
Is there an explanation to this?
anything?
ugh
Anywhoo, I'm waitin' for my love to call..Yeah it's been a while since I last updated this, but I got more into livejournal. I suppose I get bored of things easily or what not.
So, about him, he is leo, and I didn't read what I wrote about him but I sure saw the picture of us both at the beach.
Right now I'm just starting to type again with my middle right finger and it feels just as strange as it felt when I typed without it after I burnt it.
Scattered thoughts this is all it is, scattered things all over my brain.. I'm goin' to bed.
I also feel that I need to keep writing, as though I might forget how out of nowhere or maybe from fearing that there will be a day that I live without noticing.
What I miss the most is my childhood memories, why do they fade?
Is there an explanation to this?
anything?
ugh
Anywhoo, I'm waitin' for my love to call..Yeah it's been a while since I last updated this, but I got more into livejournal. I suppose I get bored of things easily or what not.
So, about him, he is leo, and I didn't read what I wrote about him but I sure saw the picture of us both at the beach.
Right now I'm just starting to type again with my middle right finger and it feels just as strange as it felt when I typed without it after I burnt it.
Scattered thoughts this is all it is, scattered things all over my brain.. I'm goin' to bed.
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