>:|

i have to say that i absolutely dislike when something thats so little in substance gets to me.

Leonard Sita

Lets go somewhere
Where you and I could be the only ones there, where time won't pass, it
won't run out.
And we will fill each others' heart with all we ever needed to survive.
Everything will be good, and even when it storms we'll celebrate.
Because we know the joy we hold inside will make the shining sun come
out again.
<3 Sandra

yoshimi battles the pink robots pt1&pt2

hmm, im so happy with everything. i feel like having leo makes it so that i don't worry about a thing. i feel soo complete with him by my side. i like him a lot he is such a cutie, and a smart boy. i mean man. while my family may or may not fall apart, i am just trying to concentrate in my happyness, and take everything one thing at a time. making an effort in everything, and doing my best. managing my time wisely, and making it all work out. it has actually seemed like it works so well. i feel secure and safe with leo, and i think thats whats keeping me so calm. he brings me a sort of inner peace.
i've got a whole lot of things going on which would normally upset me or be too much to handle, i could count almost an endless list of new responsabilities that i have been blessed with. so many that i just am so surprised to be able to take it all so well. i know that once swim starts every little bit of time i have left now will be used for swimming and resting. at the same time thats what i want. its my last year and i want to do well, i want to improve, and God is giving me that chance.
life isn't something we get many chances or many choices; well we do, but we have to make the right choice and decision the first time. so like i've already mentioned, i'm willing to do something for myself and for my own benefit. i have so many areas in which i could become more rich in. right now i'm not stressing about anything. it feels really great.

i love feeling this way. invincible.

i am the walrus

As of last night at around this same time, I said yes to Leo.
I also said yes to smiling every day from the minute I open my eyes in the morning, until the second that they shut away all the light and stay that way to allow for some rest. To a night which will be every night, in which my mind will create the most pleasant dreams involving him. I feel great, and I bet what I'm about to say is said more than it's true, but I mean it when I say that he is different from other males I've gone out with. He is so intriguing.

I don't want to be part of a broken family. I want to trust, and smile,
like I did before.

<3 Sandra

Tonight

I saw people in love. And I thought of when I felt that way about
someone.
I miss it.
<3 Sandra

1st n 2nd day in ny

i am only typing this and making sure its somewhat archived so that i can come back to it and refresh my memory.


first of all the, first day: anthony slept over the night before i flew to nyc with my cousin alexa, i packed at 3am while they were playing wii. we finally went to bed at around 4 am. only to take a nap of two hours because we had to wake up at 7 am! my mom made breakfast and we got ready. then whats it called, ANTHONY DROVE US TO THE AIRPORT!

yep, it was awesome, he parked and stayed with us for about 2 hours and helped us with checking in and passing the time. i miss him a lot. WAH

anywaysssssssssssssssssssss we said bye to anthony for about 15 minutes. said bye IT TOOK FOREVER. we waited to board for 10 minutes after that and the flight was real smooth! we had plenty of leg room since we were seated by the emergency exit. lawl

okay uhhhhh we came to new york we ate we went home, soooo late.
then walked diego, my older cousins dog.

went to sleep even later since i was talking to my cousin whom i grew up with like we were sisters and with my other one, yo that was awesome. i love 'em and we laugh so much, we alwasy have a good time.

day two:

sigh, today we woke up, or we barely did. actually we were so tired, but everything was great after we got to the city, we went to 57th and 7th and walked to central park on 5th, went up to 65th and saw the exhibits at the central park zoo. my favourite animal now are --i know thats bad grammart, but i cant narrow it down to simply one, marine mammals.

im feeling very confident in what i have decided to study etc. FASHION MERCHANDISING and etc dk whatto minor in.

but im excited... so i went to h&m and fridays and way later we strolled around the museum of modern art, there was a complete collection of picasso paintings and structures, s well as vahn gogh paintings that are quite famous. there was also a blank canvas, as art. a little bit weird i guess, and there was a bunch of pieces which i thought were def. not art related. sometimes i hear people talk about art work which you see and you really can't appreciate, i never thought i could do that since i'm so into art, but quite honestly in the media art i saw quite a few framed nothings on the wall. seriously i thought the paintings and stuff i do are more worth exhibiting.

i guess some abstract things are just not my thing. but honestly for the most part everything was beautifl, and everything was admirable. i am now exhausted, ive been walking for about 9 to 10 hours today, and i got a blister on the bottom of my left big toe, thanks schmandals i hate you.


had dinner, walked the dog with my cousin and this girl marcela whose a family friend's daughter. she is also here in the house with us. we're having so much fun! today my batteries died and i couldnt take pics, only with marcel's cam, my cousin andrea left hers in colorado, her friends coming here on sunday so then we'll have even more pictures, yesterday i took 202. ridiculous.
i wanna write more but i'm quite tired. so goodnight! i gotta take my pill.


ANTI BIOTICS SUCK WHEN THE PEOPLE YOU'RE WITH PARTY LIKE ROCKSTARS.


SECOND DAY: