at 4:50 am

I woke up, I looked at my phone thinking about you, thinking about how much I'd be in your thoughts. Imagining your ride back home, imagining how much music was on your mind. I had 2 messages, one from Allie, one from you. You! I read it right away, I saw your sweet words and it was like I felt you right there with me. I looked @ the time you sent it and I realized I was just going to sleep when you had sent it, I even recall hearing my phone ring my tone for texts-thinking it was Allie replying to me I ignored it. It was you c:

I looked @ my facebook and I saw that two hours after you'd sent that nice text to me, you'd also commented me, and it lets me know just how much you've been thinking about me.
you're sincerely a really sweet man, the man who I love and will care for unconditionally. Thank you for showing me that I still have your heart, that I'm on your mind. You are too on mine.

I love you too, and I've been missing you, my sunshine.

the night is falling

Yes, it's getting dark and the day is going,
the night is falling,
tonight I feel you deep inside my heart with longing.

That's as far as I'll take my poetry tonight because I know that when it's nighttime it's time for me to get ready to talk to you; to hear your voice, see how your day went, and I long for that moment that wont come tonight. The moment I long for so much is coming soon, but not tonight-still, it's getting closer. Your voice will only be the one I have in my heart,the sweet words and laughs, those I will only remember tonight. Those great moments in which your voice bared love and care because it's that voice that is worth remembering, that is the voice that I choose to hear and the voice that I choose to sketch my smile. I wish I could be a part of you tonight and hear all about your night and your crazy great adventures in the day. I long for you every minute that I let you linger into my mind and mostly into my heart-this happens every minute that it's darker, and later outside. When darkness covers all, my heart's sunshine brightly shines upon yours to let my eyes, my soul, see within it. Your heart is beautiful, your intentions too I know this because I've been in love with you-I still am. It's getting closer and closer to that time for me to hear your voice say 'I love you & good night' and though it may not come tonight, inside I feel peace and joy from knowing that you'll also be missing me and longing for me.
For now I'll be more than happy writing these memoirs to you. These memoirs of love and feelings of longing for you. So that you know just how much I've really thought about you. So that you know just how much my heart loves you and how good it is, how good and wholesome my love is for you.

I am willing to take this time to take off on a little vacation into my heart and my mind. It's truly amazing how much I've discovered about us within myself, and most importantly how good it feels to find that it is all good and that I love you. Though you are imperfect, you are also beautiful in many ways that I know how to appreciate. Now it's time to learn even more ways for me to see how amazing you are in places I never dared discover.

Just know that "your name is on my heart" as you said to me recently.

Leo, your name is on my heart.

the sweet taste of a good cupfull of knowledge

As life progresses, every day I realize that there is a very high rarity in the simple enjoyment of a good conversation. A conversation which requires factual knowledge and an opinionated point of view on the many different topics one might unexpectedly run into. I am not saying that conversations are hard to enjoy, but rather, that a good conversation with great enthusiasm and varied subjects of discussion is hard to find. Although once found, it may be either really enjoyable or the worst situation possible. A good hot sweet cup of coffee with or without creme is always a great companionship which adds a familiarity to the environment in which you may be encountered with a complete stranger or just a stranger side of someone you already knew. The cup of coffee or a less addictive beverage may be where the comfort of opening up your mind and your mouth with all of your thoughts and opinions is found. As you may find yourself in a totally uncomfortable situation, you can hold on to that cup, and it gives you that comfort you were so desperately looking for subconsciously. If it all goes well, every part of the situation will be enjoyable. Otherwise you might just find yourself only enjoying your drink and dreading the most boring, or totally unfamiliar conversation you've yet to have. So next time you plan on going out for coffee, drinks, juice, or water, at least make sure you'll love it without a doubt. If you're more of an experimental person, then you might just find yourself hating that moment because you're drink failed to meet your expectations and so did the conversation. Better safe than sorry, right?