pre nyc

right now i find myself in a place where the only thing that could fit into my head would have to be my imagination, my optimism, and just my youth. i feel like i really need and deserve this trip to new york. i'm writing really shitty right now, and it half bothers me only because of the grammar and shittyness of it all. anywhoooo no time for editing any texts, anthony is staying over and he's playing wii with alexa, they are having all this fun because they are ready. well alexa is so anthony is jusss chillin. i worked so hard this summer, and i really did my best. today was my last day at my job and i was very proud to have taught all these children something they could enjoy the rest of their lives. i really am gonna miss them. i'm also glad and stoked that i got some encouragement at my job. all i hear at home is how far from being an ideal daughter i am, well or so it seems. i admit that the bad things that are said here and there are easier to remember and rather harder to forget. im stoked that my boss told me how much of a role model employee i was. wow i feel like such a corn head now. lawl. anywho, IT FEELS SO GOOD TO HAVE DONE A JOB WELL DONE AND PUT ALL YOUR HEART INTO IT WITH THE REWARD OF BEING ACKNOWLEDGED OF DOING SO.

Sweet

I've never felt so shitty in my life.
I need someone who will be there and who will show me support,care,
love, trust and honesty.

I seriously think I'm a good catch, just no fishermen around.

This bums me out so much.
<3 Sandra

eco-friendly

the environment deserves for us to respect it, after all the great things it offers us and supplies us with... the capacity to sustain our living.

Everyone

Should be well aware that a relationship is hard to maintain. But at the
same time the most simple and basic things are necessary for success in
such. Caring for one another, trusting on one another, and being honest
those are indeed the most important but somehow most people fail to show
care, trust, and mostly honesty.

Well you know I tend to be nonchallant but it still gets to me from
time2time how someone or a lot of people have to lie about things or
just simply not fully inform me of all the facts.

Hmmm good thing there's intellectual distractions as well as
entertaining ones. For example books, wii, and great friends.
<3 Sandra

Mmmmm

La verdad es que me fascinaria escribir de tal forma para poder impedir
el entendimiento de mis palabras a los demas. Me fascinaria saber un
metodo el cual yo pudiese usar para escribir y expresarme, y tambien
poder expresarme. Por dios santisimo. Necesito yo es un cuaderno que
nadie pueda leer.
<3 Sandra

Career Decided

Major: Fashion Marketing
Minor: Journalism
<3 Sandra

rubix cube

idk, whats it with coming up witha title for every blog. fuck that.
anywhooo... i felt like i have a lot to say and shit and i have just been kept so shut away almost to the whole world. sincerely speaking now, i have put my life on pause. im tired of it. i need to get back to living to the fullest, and well, also i feel like i need to find someone.
PEOPLE ALWAYS GET SICK OF HEARING OTHERS' UNFORTUNATE LOVE STORIES. & i dont blame them, i say it cause i know... i do too! and well no one reads this anyway. i dont give a flying octopus.

so basically, i need to find someone, but i'm not really looking for commitment. exclusiveness? yes, with also an open possibility to a well driven relationship. come on boys! where are you?


THE ONLY BOYS THAT FULFILL MY DREAMS SO FAR, ARE THE ONES I HAVE HAD DREAMS ABOUT AT NIGHT. they are all made up characters in my imagination and i suppose thats why i sleep all the time. no one to fucking rescue me from this way of living. if seriously you're trying to get my attention to rescue me and i am not noticing, wait, even if you think im noticing..whatever. just say, "macaroni" to me next time you see me. that way, i will know.