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Minor: Journalism
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Sunday, July 22
Thursday, July 19
rubix cube
idk, whats it with coming up witha title for every blog. fuck that.
anywhooo... i felt like i have a lot to say and shit and i have just been kept so shut away almost to the whole world. sincerely speaking now, i have put my life on pause. im tired of it. i need to get back to living to the fullest, and well, also i feel like i need to find someone.
PEOPLE ALWAYS GET SICK OF HEARING OTHERS' UNFORTUNATE LOVE STORIES. & i dont blame them, i say it cause i know... i do too! and well no one reads this anyway. i dont give a flying octopus.
so basically, i need to find someone, but i'm not really looking for commitment. exclusiveness? yes, with also an open possibility to a well driven relationship. come on boys! where are you?
THE ONLY BOYS THAT FULFILL MY DREAMS SO FAR, ARE THE ONES I HAVE HAD DREAMS ABOUT AT NIGHT. they are all made up characters in my imagination and i suppose thats why i sleep all the time. no one to fucking rescue me from this way of living. if seriously you're trying to get my attention to rescue me and i am not noticing, wait, even if you think im noticing..whatever. just say, "macaroni" to me next time you see me. that way, i will know.
Sunday, July 8
now playing: do the whirlwind pandatronix mix
so right now i feel like no matter how hard you try sometimes to get someone to stay in love with you, and as much as they tell you they are... their actions speak for them. And then in the meantime you see yourself almost about to fall into a...ditch, only its not quite like that.. because at the very bottom of that dreadful ditch resides someone who you know you should much rather be in love with or actually taking your time and spending it with. im in a dilemma, and im possibly, actually.. someone will end up hurt. im sick of being the one to be. sooo i guess now, im in control of the situation and thats just what ill do.. take control of the situation. break a heart. move on. and be as happy as i deserve to be.
lets not talk about wheather or not i deserve something or a certain someone, nor about the opposite which would be wheather ( im probably using the incorrect word) they deserve me.
Lets talk (and i dont mean "lets" since its just me here talking to an invisible wall. how bad is that? dang) about what i think i deserve and what i need.
I want a boy who will do just about anything for me, but at the same time, someone who has their own ideas and points of view on things and lets me know about them, just as much as he'll ask for my opinion on things and listen. Someone who will show me how much i mean to them, and someone who just as i do pays attention to detail.
I'd just like someone who will undoubtedly say something goofy and make it sound serious, someone who will make me laugh and do spontaneous things with me or for me. im not asking for someone whose world ill become. because i still want them to keep their lives as they used to be before we wound up together. i want someone who is my best friend, and at the same time my sweet heart. Id like to meet someone who will wake up by my side and just be glad to be there, without any need to do a thing or say a thing. just joyful and smiling to see me there. Yes "it" will be the best I've ever had, but that doesnt mean thats all the passion we'll have for one another.
I need an understanding, loving, forgiving, funny, spontaneous, caring, opinionated person. Someone who doesn't resort to illegal substances, nor alcohol, or nicotine. A strong man, with the biggest heart there could ever be.
Lets talk (and i dont mean "lets" since its just me here talking to an invisible wall. how bad is that? dang) about what i think i deserve and what i need.
I want a boy who will do just about anything for me, but at the same time, someone who has their own ideas and points of view on things and lets me know about them, just as much as he'll ask for my opinion on things and listen. Someone who will show me how much i mean to them, and someone who just as i do pays attention to detail.
I'd just like someone who will undoubtedly say something goofy and make it sound serious, someone who will make me laugh and do spontaneous things with me or for me. im not asking for someone whose world ill become. because i still want them to keep their lives as they used to be before we wound up together. i want someone who is my best friend, and at the same time my sweet heart. Id like to meet someone who will wake up by my side and just be glad to be there, without any need to do a thing or say a thing. just joyful and smiling to see me there. Yes "it" will be the best I've ever had, but that doesnt mean thats all the passion we'll have for one another.
I need an understanding, loving, forgiving, funny, spontaneous, caring, opinionated person. Someone who doesn't resort to illegal substances, nor alcohol, or nicotine. A strong man, with the biggest heart there could ever be.
today, a fine fine sunday!
i woke up today and decided to go to anthony's house as soon as possible, and i got here and him and josie woke up pretty much as soon as i rang the doorbell. well anyhow they pour checkers in their mouths for breakfast. in the meantime i sit there waiting to do something...its been like an hour and a half since ive been here and there all cleaning upstairs... uhh im just waiting and waitin for time to pass and i guess later ill have to drive down, soooo far. the thought of rain came to my head as i was typing my previous sentence and then... i hear thunderclaps.
what is it with me and predicting shit sometimes, not just weather, any four year old can forecast a storm. but just other things i guess.
i am in dire need of my phone to start working again, and for my paycheck, and for a better mood that my parents can just aquire by mere desire.
i guess i'll head home in a little while and either eat or call people, and more specifically carlos. then drive to plantation, or somethin nearly if not farther than that. i just figured out something i could definatly rant on and on about for hours, and so this is the end of this post and then i guess just.... wait for my next post.
but then again, who reads this besides nadine?
what is it with me and predicting shit sometimes, not just weather, any four year old can forecast a storm. but just other things i guess.
i am in dire need of my phone to start working again, and for my paycheck, and for a better mood that my parents can just aquire by mere desire.
i guess i'll head home in a little while and either eat or call people, and more specifically carlos. then drive to plantation, or somethin nearly if not farther than that. i just figured out something i could definatly rant on and on about for hours, and so this is the end of this post and then i guess just.... wait for my next post.
but then again, who reads this besides nadine?
Saturday, July 7
Thursday, July 5
Right now
I'm feeling so good, I had some great laughs with my cousin tonight. I
realize no ones is there for certain other than my family and I wanted
to just put it out there to make it clear. As she falls asleep and begs
me to try to do so myself I sit here typing away with so many
unorganized thoughts and ideas running through my head. I wonder if
there is a way my ipods battery is ever gunna run out as well as if
there's ever gonna be a way for me to figure out what im gonna be in the
future. What will my career be? If you know me, you know that I
sometimes tend to talk to much, maybe that will be your answer as to the
lack of punctuation in some of my "blogs". I really don't give a fuck
who reads this or who fails to notice it. I'm just glad I got a way to
keep my writing... filed, I guess you could call it that. And though I
hate to just rant about nothingness, sometimes I just wanna type away
shit that goes through my mind constantly. I must confess that I tend to
bullshit my way through a long ass post or something just so I have the
satisfaction of knowing that the major lurks that bothered reading this
whole thing didn't get any substantial information they were most likely
counting on, I go to sleep knowing that I've made people waste their
time reading this. And well, I have other reasons which are simple.
After such a deplorable first expurience reading my blog I will assume
such snoops won't snoop around here anymore. And well I do understand
that earlier I did say that I didn't give two flying salt shakers about
who read this or not, but it still gives me satisfaction to think that
someone lacked interest in reading this duen to the grand amount of
minutes wasted reading such absurd bullshit. Congratulations. You've
made me happy by wasting your time, now knowing what to expect in the
future from all of my posts.
realize no ones is there for certain other than my family and I wanted
to just put it out there to make it clear. As she falls asleep and begs
me to try to do so myself I sit here typing away with so many
unorganized thoughts and ideas running through my head. I wonder if
there is a way my ipods battery is ever gunna run out as well as if
there's ever gonna be a way for me to figure out what im gonna be in the
future. What will my career be? If you know me, you know that I
sometimes tend to talk to much, maybe that will be your answer as to the
lack of punctuation in some of my "blogs". I really don't give a fuck
who reads this or who fails to notice it. I'm just glad I got a way to
keep my writing... filed, I guess you could call it that. And though I
hate to just rant about nothingness, sometimes I just wanna type away
shit that goes through my mind constantly. I must confess that I tend to
bullshit my way through a long ass post or something just so I have the
satisfaction of knowing that the major lurks that bothered reading this
whole thing didn't get any substantial information they were most likely
counting on, I go to sleep knowing that I've made people waste their
time reading this. And well, I have other reasons which are simple.
After such a deplorable first expurience reading my blog I will assume
such snoops won't snoop around here anymore. And well I do understand
that earlier I did say that I didn't give two flying salt shakers about
who read this or not, but it still gives me satisfaction to think that
someone lacked interest in reading this duen to the grand amount of
minutes wasted reading such absurd bullshit. Congratulations. You've
made me happy by wasting your time, now knowing what to expect in the
future from all of my posts.
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