everything is silent

The only sounds I want to hear are those of your voice.
The only sounds I want to dance to are those from your mind.
I just want to be with you, closer each day, joyous and contagious with your laughter. I want to be really close to you physically too. I want to feel the heat of your hand brushing against mine.
I miss you so much, all day I've been trying to leave status updates all over where you might see them. I do this so you know what I'm up to, but I don't think you've payed any mind.. your message says the same thing: "pulsating"
not knowing how you're doing is so difficult to deal with. only because I want to know that you're well and maybe thinking about me as much as I'm thinking about you.
i feel really alone and i need to hear your voice..your comforting thoughts put in speech and sweet sentences. i miss you lots and i don't think this "break" is gonna last.
i can wait till I'm ready, when I am I will let you know.

at 4:50 am

I woke up, I looked at my phone thinking about you, thinking about how much I'd be in your thoughts. Imagining your ride back home, imagining how much music was on your mind. I had 2 messages, one from Allie, one from you. You! I read it right away, I saw your sweet words and it was like I felt you right there with me. I looked @ the time you sent it and I realized I was just going to sleep when you had sent it, I even recall hearing my phone ring my tone for texts-thinking it was Allie replying to me I ignored it. It was you c:

I looked @ my facebook and I saw that two hours after you'd sent that nice text to me, you'd also commented me, and it lets me know just how much you've been thinking about me.
you're sincerely a really sweet man, the man who I love and will care for unconditionally. Thank you for showing me that I still have your heart, that I'm on your mind. You are too on mine.

I love you too, and I've been missing you, my sunshine.

the night is falling

Yes, it's getting dark and the day is going,
the night is falling,
tonight I feel you deep inside my heart with longing.

That's as far as I'll take my poetry tonight because I know that when it's nighttime it's time for me to get ready to talk to you; to hear your voice, see how your day went, and I long for that moment that wont come tonight. The moment I long for so much is coming soon, but not tonight-still, it's getting closer. Your voice will only be the one I have in my heart,the sweet words and laughs, those I will only remember tonight. Those great moments in which your voice bared love and care because it's that voice that is worth remembering, that is the voice that I choose to hear and the voice that I choose to sketch my smile. I wish I could be a part of you tonight and hear all about your night and your crazy great adventures in the day. I long for you every minute that I let you linger into my mind and mostly into my heart-this happens every minute that it's darker, and later outside. When darkness covers all, my heart's sunshine brightly shines upon yours to let my eyes, my soul, see within it. Your heart is beautiful, your intentions too I know this because I've been in love with you-I still am. It's getting closer and closer to that time for me to hear your voice say 'I love you & good night' and though it may not come tonight, inside I feel peace and joy from knowing that you'll also be missing me and longing for me.
For now I'll be more than happy writing these memoirs to you. These memoirs of love and feelings of longing for you. So that you know just how much I've really thought about you. So that you know just how much my heart loves you and how good it is, how good and wholesome my love is for you.

I am willing to take this time to take off on a little vacation into my heart and my mind. It's truly amazing how much I've discovered about us within myself, and most importantly how good it feels to find that it is all good and that I love you. Though you are imperfect, you are also beautiful in many ways that I know how to appreciate. Now it's time to learn even more ways for me to see how amazing you are in places I never dared discover.

Just know that "your name is on my heart" as you said to me recently.

Leo, your name is on my heart.

3 thoughts lingering in my mind

1. I keep seeing people pursuing their dreams, great effort, great creations..sometimes with a success, sometimes not so much. However, I don't know where I hid my dreams to go follow them! Hmm.. Surely I need to find them in order to have the opportunity to attempt success.

2.--I forget now, you're lucky I was able to post at least two things-- Short time memory loss equals me, never being able to remember what I was talking about after I get interrupted.

3. I want to make love to a few songs, I just heard Sexy Boy by Air. Yep, that is one of 'em.